"Whenever anything begins to disintegrate your life with Jesus Christ, turn to Him at once and ask Him to establish rest. Never allow anything to remain which is making the dis-peace. Take every element of disintegration as something to wrestle against, and not to suffer. Say--Lord, prove Thy consciousnes in me, and self-consciousness will go and He will be all in all Beward of allowing self-consciousness to continue because by slow degrees it will awaken self-pity, and self-pity is Satanic."
--Oswald Chambers

I guess I never thought of self-pity as anything particularly sinful. The other day, as I was letting a tear or two of pure self-pity run down my face, I opened My Utmost for His Highest, and the August 20 devotion contained the quote above. Obviously it was something I reallllly need to hear.
"But God, I don't know what to do next!"
Trust Me.
"But God, it's so hard to talk to my friends at school and still be here!"
Trust ME.
"But God, I've been trusting You for so long...I'm tired."
Trust. Me.

Yeah, you'd think I would get it through my thick skull. Any day now.

And currently I'm trying to juggle 4 different conversation on Facebook chat. I hate Facebook chat, but I forget that I'm signed on, and people talk to me. I'm helping 2 of my guy friends out with their girl problems. As if I'm a love guru. I find that guys come to me with their problems...and I'm not so good with the advice. Seriously, I stink at advice. I'm better with sarcasm and such. I should just tell them to become monks and leave it at that.